21 December 2004 @ 12:23 pm
Epilogue: One Werewolf, One Boy, and a Ghost  
Fic: Epilogue: One Werewolf, One Boy, and a Ghost
Author: [livejournal.com profile] sheafrotherdon
Rating: G
Pairing: R/S
Disclaimer: JKR owns the pups, I just torture them
X Posted: [livejournal.com profile] remusxsirius and [livejournal.com profile] shacking_up
Summary: It's the Christmas after Sirius dies, and memories surface.
A/N: Oh see, THIS is why I write the happy! Because otherwise Remus breaks my heart. 291 words of remembering to follow Two Wizards, One Gift, and a Duck-Billed Platypus. Thanks again to [livejournal.com profile] thistlerose for looking it over!



They sat on the stairs, the only place that felt remotely comfortable in the confines of that malevolent house. Dust clung to their trousers, their hands, their hair. Voices echoed distantly from other rooms, the sparse notes of half-heard Christmas carols brushing past like the breath of ghosts.

“Did you . . . did he . . . “ Harry paused, awkwardly. “Were there good Christmases?”

Remus half-smiled. “There were. The year you were born . . .” His voice trailed off into memory. “Despite everything, that was a good year.”

“I don’t remember it.”

“You were too young.”

Harry shifted, clasping his hands between his knees. “But . . . “

Remus turned his head a little, the better to look at the young man beside him. “Hmm?”

Harry frowned, unsure. “I don’t remember faces, or voices, or actual things, but . . . “ He broke off, shook his head. “No, it’s stupid.”

“Tell me.”

He shifted slightly, feeling self-conscious. “I remember . . . just this sense. This sense that I was loved.” He flinched as Remus made the tiniest choking sound, and hung his head. “Remus? I . . . “

Remus shook his head. “It’s OK.” He closed his eyes against the onslaught of memories – the vivid image of Sirius grinning madly with a stuffed toy in his hands, soothing a restless spirit with face paint and puzzles. He cleared his throat, stealing himself against the specter of kisses long past and fingers entwined. “You were, Harry. You were.” He opened his eyes and gave him the tired smile he wore so often these days. “You are.”

They leaned against one another then, marooned on that staircase, stranded between grieving and living again.
 
 
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[identity profile] cdkobasiuk.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 06:39 pm (UTC)
oh my gosh! That was so perfect. I liked the bonding end between Harry and Remus. Absolutley great.

cdk
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 07:16 pm (UTC)
I'm all for the Harry/Remus bonding. If there isn't major bonding love (very much NOT bondage love) between them in HBP I shall be most sad.

I'm glad you liked it!
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[identity profile] endaemion.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 06:52 pm (UTC)
awwwwwwwwwwww---! It's so sweet... cavity...but so good... *cry*
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 07:17 pm (UTC)
Remus breaks my heart! But I'm glad you liked it :)
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[identity profile] beingothrwrldly.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 07:00 pm (UTC)
You are so brilliant. I loved Two Wizards, One Gift, and a Duck-Billed Platypus, and I love this, too. It is so heartbreaking, especially if one were to read it immediately following the first part, as I did. *sob*

What I love about your fic, is the way you write them together. They just seem like they have so much fun, and it's so sweet and wonderful. I always squee with delight when I see a new fic from you!! Yay!!
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 07:17 pm (UTC)
You're so sweet! I'm glad you liked them both -- and I hope reading this right after the other one didn't make the funny in the first all bitter and sad.

Thank you!
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[identity profile] pinkfinity.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 07:03 pm (UTC)
: weeps hormonally

So lovely.
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 07:19 pm (UTC)
Remus kills me. End of story.

Glad you . . . cried? :)
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[identity profile] sundaydriver.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 07:33 pm (UTC)
I, like you, hope that Remus and Harry will be able to bond more in the upcoming 6th book.

That was a perfect epilogue and it broke my heart when Harry said that he remembered being loved. I liked how you tied that back to the original story.

And now I must rec the epilogue, like I did with the story, in my LJ.

So very good:)
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:42 am (UTC)
Thank you so much for the recs! That's so sweet of you -- I'm really so touched by that.

It broke my heart too, in the writing. This is why I am queen of silly and not queen of angst :)
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[identity profile] shadowpryde.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 07:55 pm (UTC)
{bawls}

Right ... the previous fic makes up for the sadness and perfection of this fic.

'I would rather have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.'

-Draconis Leona-
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:43 am (UTC)
I've always wondered about that quote -- the better to have loved and lost. I can never really decide if it's true . . .

I'm glad you enjoyed the wee epilogue -- even if it was enjoy in that 'ouch!' way :)
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[identity profile] nikuchan.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 09:36 pm (UTC)
; ;

It didn't help at all that the saddest song on my playlist had to be playing when I read this. T___T

Gah... I can't stand just how sad Sirius' death is... and it's affect on poor Remus. I love [livejournal.com profile] one900's fic: http://www.livejournal.com/users/one900/63090.html So sad. -_-
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:44 am (UTC)
I know. I write the silly simply because the idea of October 31, 1981 kills me. I'm really not cut out for the angst!

Thanks for the rec of the other story -- I'll have to read it once I'm back in town and at my own computer!
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[identity profile] dogeared.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 10:15 pm (UTC)
This is as spare and lovely as your other fics are funny... but ow! It feels very true, though, and marooned on that staircase, stranded between grieving and living again is a beautiful, beautiful line.

Apropos of nothing, really (except that it immediately reminded me of Remus), a Thoreau quote from today's Writer's Almanac: "In winter we lead a more inward life. Our hearts are warm and cheery, like cottages under drifts, whose windows and doors are half concealed, but from whose chimneys the smoke cheerfully ascends."
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:45 am (UTC)
I love that quote! What a beautiful thought about winter -- it rings so true.

This little thing does ouch, doesn't it? But I'm glad you liked it all the same :)
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[identity profile] thistlerose.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 11:07 pm (UTC)
*sniffle* I reread the first story and got all elated, then I reread this one and got all melancholy. Which is a good thing, actually. This is so sad, but I love that there's a very real element of hope. If Harry's calling Remus by his first name, and Remus can tell Harry that he is loved...they'll be all right together, I think.
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:46 am (UTC)
It was out of our conversation about the end of OOTP that this scene was born -- your observation that someone should have told Harry they loved him.

I hope they'll be alright. I hope JKR will make them lean on each other.
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[identity profile] lmondegreen.livejournal.com on December 21st, 2004 11:20 pm (UTC)
*wibbles* Makes me want to hug them both...
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:46 am (UTC)
I know! Me too!

thank you for reading! (that's my quote of exclamation points done for the week . . . ;))
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[identity profile] bandonbanshee.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 12:09 am (UTC)
What a poignant epilogue -- especially as we can share in Remus' memories thanks to Two Wizards... Fantastic stuff.
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:47 am (UTC)
thank you! The image came to me as I was trying to finish Two Wizards, and I thought it was better to set it aside and post it as its own thought. Otherwise -- ouch. But I'm so glad you liked it!
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[identity profile] ex-stateline124.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 01:44 am (UTC)
WAH.
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:47 am (UTC)
*is sorry*

*will try not to do it again ;)*
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[identity profile] fleur-de-liz.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 03:57 am (UTC)

Oh wibble. As soon as I saw Harry say "I remember the sense that I was loved," I was gone. Lovely as always.

...Is it July 16th yet? No?

...How about now?

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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:48 am (UTC)
six months and . . . a bit. Still. :) dammit.
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[identity profile] avoteforla.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:11 am (UTC)
I love your angst. Even if you, you know. Don't. *G*
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:49 am (UTC)
Ha :)

I'll have you know I started that Bellatrix fic. I don't know when it'll get done, but it's sparse and cold and *dark* man. And I blame you ;)
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(no subject) - [identity profile] avoteforla.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:52 am (UTC)
[identity profile] writerbuggie.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:41 am (UTC)
And you *still* rule the world. :loves:
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 22nd, 2004 04:49 am (UTC)
*blushes*. Thank you!
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[identity profile] erraticonstilts.livejournal.com on December 24th, 2004 08:42 am (UTC)
oh, what a lovely ending. i'm glad that remus and harry shared some bonding time. and it was sweet how harry remembered feeling loved.
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 24th, 2004 04:06 pm (UTC)
Remus and Harry *so* need some bonding time. I'm hoping Lupin's the reason Harry leaves the Dursely's so early at the beginning of book six. Only what, six months until we find out? ;)
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[identity profile] therealmarajade.livejournal.com on December 28th, 2004 07:39 pm (UTC)
Ok, NOW I'm crying...wonderful, wonderful, WONDERFUL ficlet!

Debora
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 28th, 2004 10:50 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it -- in that 'liking and crying' sense! :)
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[identity profile] faile02.livejournal.com on December 28th, 2004 09:24 pm (UTC)
I just read this right after reading Two Wizards, One Gift, and a Duck-Billed Platypus, and now I am really crying. Oh Remus and Harry, I want to hug them so badly.
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 28th, 2004 10:52 pm (UTC)
I know, I know, me too -- writing this broke my heart, but it wanted out. Damn ficlet ;)

I very much hope that the reason Harry gets away from the Dursley's early in book 6 is because he gets to spend time with Remus. The two of them leaning on each other (metaphorically and literally) is my dearest wish for that book.
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(no subject) - [identity profile] faile02.livejournal.com on December 28th, 2004 11:01 pm (UTC)
[identity profile] tenillypo.livejournal.com on December 28th, 2004 10:00 pm (UTC)
*sighs*
Oh, how lovely.

Thanks for sharing!
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 28th, 2004 10:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading it! I'm glad you liked it :)
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[identity profile] centricity.livejournal.com on December 29th, 2004 06:39 pm (UTC)
I refuse to cry ANY.MORE. about Remus. I refuse. I won't, I won't, I ... oh... okay, maybe just... once more.
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on December 29th, 2004 06:44 pm (UTC)
I know, I know! I keep feeling like I should apologize for writing this :) Poor man, he kills me.
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[identity profile] mona1347.livejournal.com on January 2nd, 2005 05:06 am (UTC)
*choke*

Oh my. You've killed me with this last one.

I've just read all three stories and I can't express how much I love them! I must rec them on my LJ when I get a moment - do you mind?

I love your Sirius and your Remus and just...face paint!!! :D I could go on and on but it would probably end up with me mostly quoting my favorite parts and there isn't enough room here :) Suffice it to say I enjoyed them all. I believe I got here from a rec from [livejournal.com profile] musefool and I'm glad I did!
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on January 2nd, 2005 06:59 am (UTC)
If it's any consolation, I killed myself with the writing of the last one ;). Luckily the death wasn't permanent, and I hope yours is similarly fleeting :)

Thank you for the kind words! I'm so glad you liked them -- and I'm flattered that you'd want to rec them. Thank you!
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[identity profile] seshat1.livejournal.com on January 2nd, 2005 11:50 pm (UTC)
I read the original fic, and the following ficlet (which I adored, but I'll come back to that) fine, but this? These 291 words made me cry my little heart out.

Gah, both the ficlets were a perfect addition to the longer fic. And Two Wizards, ONe Gift and a Duck-Billed Platypus was wonderful. Brilliantly imaginative, and fantastically funny. XD

Much love for all three <3
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on January 3rd, 2005 12:03 am (UTC)
thank you! And I mean it in the best of ways when I say I'm glad you cried :)

I never intended that there'd be an arc, but then there it was . . . taught me to welcome surprises :) I'm so glad you enjoyed all three!
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[identity profile] teaspoon.livejournal.com on January 7th, 2005 06:56 am (UTC)
*whimpers*

So good, and yet... Since when do you bring the angst?!

Oh well. *loves on you anyway*
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on January 7th, 2005 06:58 am (UTC)
I know, I know (*points upward at her 10 milllion apologies*) ;)

I have solemnly sworn off the angst. In fact there's a story between Duck-Billed Platypus and this one (even though I wrote it last) that's fun again! I swear! :)
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(no subject) - [identity profile] teaspoon.livejournal.com on January 7th, 2005 07:01 am (UTC)
[identity profile] vixenette.livejournal.com on January 8th, 2005 07:03 am (UTC)
*chokes* Oh, now I've got tears in my eyes! Huzzah, a fantastic epilogue -- short, sweet, to the point and absolutely perfect. Great, great job! :D
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on January 9th, 2005 12:20 am (UTC)
In the best of ways, I'm glad for the tears! :) Remus bloody breaks my heart.

thank you for reading it! (And did you know I wrote an in-between, OOTP story in this arc? I wrote it last, at [livejournal.com profile] musesfool's prodding, and it's at http://www.livejournal.com/users/sheafrotherdon/8024.html).
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[identity profile] xijegu.livejournal.com on February 15th, 2005 01:16 am (UTC)
The best and the most bittersweet 288 words, perfection.
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[identity profile] sheafrotherdon.livejournal.com on February 15th, 2005 01:27 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I don't often write angst, and I hated making Remus so unhappy . . . but it's one of my favorite little things I've done. I'm so glad you enjoyed it!
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