07 May 2017 @ 10:00 am
Yesterday morning I went to see Gifted, and oh, my heart. I'll say this - the plot is contrived (neither the central conflict nor resolution make a lot of sense) and some of the dialogue is clunky, but it manages to be a very sweet movie none-the-less. Chris Evans does a beautiful job of playing a father who loves his child to pieces but also wishes he had a little more time to himself, and who is also just so palpably sad throughout the whole thing that you want to bundle him up and take him home. (Luckily Octavia Spencer is there to a) own every scene she's in and b) hold his big old dirty hand when he needs it.)

But, as is a regular feature of me going to the movies, I ended up crying not just over the central storyline, but over random other realizations about my life. There's a scene (and I'm not giving anything away here) where Chris is at a bar playing a drinking game with a woman who asks him a probing question, and he looks at her for a long moment, eyes literally twinkling, and I realized . . . no one has ever looked at me that way in my whole life. And I promptly burst into tears because of about a thousand things - that bare fact; the fact that there are so few Chris Evans' in the world; the fact that there are a hundred layers of . . . hmmm, how to thread this needle. I got a glimpse, in that moment, of someone else's life. It's not mine, and I don't think it will ever be mine because of so many variables - some changeable, some not - and I love this life I have. But I imagined a different life for just a moment and it looked pretty good, too.

(And please don't tell me some version of 'you can do it!' about dating - that is absolutely not where I'm at, and not even really the point.)

Anyway, the day ended with me sitting up until 11.30 with friends on their front porch - doggedly sitting out there with blankets, because it cooled off a lot, but by god, we were determined to be outside under the lights they'd strung up before there were a lot of bugs around. We drank some good wine and chatted the evening away and it was lovely. May there be more nights like it before we hit the part of the year where doing something like that is impossible without a head-to-toe rinse in Deet.

I don't know what I want to do with my Sunday yet, which is sort of delicious. I know what I *ought* to do, but eh, I'm going with my gut today. And my gut says . . . more tea. So that's where I'm going to begin :D

Happy day, everyone!
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lexstar29[personal profile] lexstar29 on May 7th, 2017 04:00 pm (UTC)
My darling friend, I know that feeling well, about someone looking at you in that way. You've put it in a good way I think, that it's not even about something you necessarily want, just a glimpse of a different life. I'm sending you lots of love and a gentle hug through that realisation.

I am all for going with your gut instinct, especially when that instinct involves tea. Have a glorious Sunday
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sheafrotherdon[personal profile] sheafrotherdon on May 9th, 2017 12:27 pm (UTC)
It was a lovely day, and ended up making it possible to go to work yesterday without feeling like the sky was falling. Hurray! How was your weekend, my dear?
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lexstar29[personal profile] lexstar29 on May 9th, 2017 12:31 pm (UTC)
I'm very pleased to hear that.

My weekend was good thank you. Saturday was a bit of a haze of still trying to settle back after New York, but Sunday I got my head back on a better track, which really helped. I did some reading and journalled some, all of which did wonders for me. Today I can feel the beauty of the world. I'm sending you some internal sunshine and the hopes that something lovely touches you today.
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sheafrotherdon[personal profile] sheafrotherdon on May 9th, 2017 12:31 pm (UTC)
And I'm sending out the same wish for you!
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kass[personal profile] kass on May 7th, 2017 10:17 pm (UTC)
I hug you up.
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sheafrotherdon[personal profile] sheafrotherdon on May 9th, 2017 12:27 pm (UTC)
Right back at you x 11ty! ♥
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hypertwink[personal profile] hypertwink on May 8th, 2017 12:15 am (UTC)
I like Gifted. It was a simple little story with small ambition, and one of them is to dirty up Chris Evans to see if we'd still like him...we do. I think that the girl had great chemistry with Chris and their scenes together made me think that Chris could be a great dad...someday. I ended up shipping him with Octavia instead of Jenny Slate.
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sheafrotherdon[personal profile] sheafrotherdon on May 9th, 2017 12:28 pm (UTC)
Was there ever a doubt that we would love dirty Chris Evans? :D If so, the movie makers know little about the workings of our minds :D

And yes to Chris and Octavia!
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Noora: Steve - relieved[personal profile] adelate on May 8th, 2017 02:33 pm (UTC)
It can be so unsettling to get a glimpse like that of how it might be. (I like to think that in one of the infinite parallel universes somewhere, Chris Evans is totally looking at me right at this moment with his eyes twinkling.)

Also a comforting thought for me is that apparently our brains don't make a huge difference between whether you're reading about something or experiencing it, so whenever I feel like oh, nothing happens to me, I can just read about something instead.

Sorry, I got a bit carried away with that! I hope you have a good day!
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sheafrotherdon[personal profile] sheafrotherdon on May 9th, 2017 12:28 pm (UTC)
That is such a reassuring thing about our brains! I love that. I need to use that information to give me something I need when RL isn't providing it. Thank you!
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celli[personal profile] celli on May 8th, 2017 05:31 pm (UTC)
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sheafrotherdon[personal profile] sheafrotherdon on May 9th, 2017 12:29 pm (UTC)
*hugs you back!*
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Moonie[personal profile] moonie on May 9th, 2017 01:05 pm (UTC)
and who is also just so palpably sad throughout the whole thing that you want to bundle him up and take him home

Oh, I am definitely going to enjoy that movie. :D

That does sound like the material good evenings are made out of.
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